Thankful

Dear M
Thank you for reminding me that training takes time.

There is a growing awareness of time passing by. It is difficult to accept my limitations. I will be able to do so much and no more.
Desperately running around screaming "change" is not going to work- however strong the feeling.

I thought I would plant some seeds and the tree would bear fruits and I would be able to partake of them- in a beatific state of "forever". Hahaha. Just too bad- that I have to face the reality of this tree- there is no magic here. Most likely, one tree is not enough, and perhaps many trees are not enough either. I can't really say how long one will last- mostly because these are my first trees, my first life, and I am not sure I have a precedent here that I can count on.

Unless I have a "total faith" attitude, I have to be part of this world. And the business of life shall have to be carried on forever- that is the longest lasting conclusion I have.

It's nice to have you.
I can hear myself in you, when I cannot hear myself. And it is reassuring.

I am dispensable.
This is a wow moment- wanted to share it with you.

Cheers
Smita