Ashik ka janaza hai Zara dhoom se nikle.

I may talk hard strategy - but I do it only when I am trapped.

Like the time when I had to pay back a loan to the bank, and I did not have the 50 lakhs, I had to think hard. Conceal. Lie.

Given a choice I would like to keep things simple- think positive. Deeply positive. Not just pretend to be that way.

I'd rather work on moving that switch in my head, which changes my frame of mind, than go to work on altering the reality in front of me- on which I have shit all control anyway.

It feels good- rich- to first accept a view and a way, and then question it's value for self and society.
Science however was all about questions. I really have outlived the utility of my education.

Look at the standard pattern that I follow. See something- question it.
And then I want to be universally loved. Silly really. In the questions is implicit a certain resentment and rejection of whatever I am facing. Abrasion is inevitable.

I can see however that the scientific approach is aligned to progress. An "Anti" stand makes me think faster, harder. With that awareness and the defensive stance, the juices flow.

But over that part of my life which has been lived, I think the juices have dried up. I just do not aspire as much. I'd rather have it all just enough- and just right -instead of as much as possible.

Getting it right is a better game than getting more and then trying to make the most of everything.

Is the process of acquisition losing it's charm?

That's not it. I know what follows though- Acquisitions pile up. Hoarding means work on maintenance . It is so clear that I have more than I can use before the expiry date. Mine or that on what is before me.

Worst of all, the stuff that has already expired must be disposed off. Holding on to it will raise the stink. Unless, Unless.......Organic waale jo specialists ise padh rahe hain, expert advice mangta hai.

Ya ki undertakers saamne aa jayen- let's bury the dead in as pretty a way as possible.