I am feeling happy and hopeful

Last night my prayers were answered when the society generator copped off.

The noise had been unbearable-I had not been able to watch Television for a week because I just hated any sound that I could do away with. And I am one of those who can relax by listening to loud music played at full volume when I am stressed.

Probably having that kind of sound in my ear all the time was what did it.

Too much of even a rythm that is sought, can be off putting.

I had also begun to feel rather frustrated by the apparent tolerance in people around me. They seemed to be living normal lives while I was climbing the wall. People have been saying I am over sensitive- and this was weighing on me.

But the guy who came down from a neighbouring flat really lost it. It was difficult to not feel avenged in some small way.

He said his blood pressure was rising, and it showed in the volume at which he spoke. And then he sort of embraced the generator and threatened to get violent if it was restarted. There were others, whose homes are not as close to where the generator is located. They wanted to express sympathy, and get it going somehow. So they could go home, switch on their coolers and go back to sleep.

But by then many others had joined up to say- no generator if it is so noisy.

Now the basic problem is that our old generators are in need of repair and there is no money to carry that work out. If everyone was to pay up old dues, and sit down to discuss the possibilities instead of trying to fix the blame for the not working system, there could be a real solution in sight.

For the present it is great to have refused a compromise.

We have chosen to give up now for but not given in to the hopelessness for the infinite future.

And maybe from this ability to say no to a compromised solution, shall arise the creativity to find a good way forward.

I am feeling happy and hopeful.